Ang Aking Lolo

Lolo Jun ang tawag ko sa kanya
Bata man o matanda, may ipin man o wala, ay kilala siya
Pag sinabing black and white, o passport kaya

Si Lolo Jun ang t'yak bida sa istorya.

Sayang nga lamang at si lolo ay nagkasakit
Pero di ako nakalampas sa turo niyang hatid
Pagbilang ng 1 to 200 ay aking nabatid
Binibigkas ko sa kanya habang sya'y nakamasid.

Burger at bukayo, pasalubong nya sa akin
Prutas na saging laging nyang pinapakain.
Pasalubong sa amin agad nyang ihahain
Kasabay ang pangaral na pagkain 'wag sasayangin.

Sa iyo aking lolo
Pasasalamat namin ay todo-todo
Sa pagmamahal at pagaalaga na bigay mo
Salamat po at naging parte ka ng buhay ko.

I LOVE YOU LOLO.

- Recited by Abygaile during the Necrological Rites
- Penned by Abby (Abygaile's mom)

I know I had to share this poem by my cousin, AA and ninang abby. It is definitely a simple yet touching piece, and somehow I can relate. I am sure that wherever Lolo Jun is right now, he is so proud of her.

At eighteen

I am Neda Marie Lemos Maramo and I just turned 18. I am a simple type of girl who would laugh at silly stuffs, cry at heartwarming movies and tv shows and touching reality scenes, gets giddy in uber kilig love couples and cheesy pick up lines and gwapos (secretly), eats anything on the table and have my own perspective in life, yet sees others' through their eyes and by listening and seeing through their life experiences, which also helps me see every detail of a masterpiece painting. I know that I grow in every thing I do; emotionally, mentally, spiritually, socially, and maybe also literally physically. Thanks to all the people who has different roles; people who are always there for me (morally and long distance), people who make me feel that my life is worth writing and blogging about, people who makes my heart sing and makes me shake my groove thing, people who break my heart and get mad at me in every mistake I make, people who inspires me, people who fills me with knowledge, people who don't make me feel like an outcast, to all those people who entered in my life, and of course to all those people who love me as I am.

Perfectly flawed is what I am, yet I know to myself how to appreciate life. Actually, I always think that we all live in a perfect world. Because in my point of view, a perfect life is a recipe with different ingredients, different spices, and different way of procedure, just like ours to different people. Some finished product may have an unsuccessful taste, but we can still repeat and do better. Some people may appreciate you, some may not. But the best thing is serving as a need to other people and to yourself (emotional boost). Right now, you may not know what your life purpose is. Look around, look back, relax and think. Sometimes, seeing the door you're going to is not the perfect solution to a happy life, but the things you do on your way there. The materials needed mostly will always be from you.

Regret is the worst thing in the world. So, enjoy life, dream, grab every opportunity, explore, take pictures and videos, worry less, and love like you've never been hurt because life is what you make it. Appreciate everything you have, because things will knock on your door on the right time.

I felt the magic

One night, I came through the folders of my external drive, driving through our last visit to Enchanted Kingdom with some of my favorite people in the world. It was last December 29, 2010 when my ninong Enteng came home for a vacation.

passport to funland

ako ang bida, walang kokontra

shoutout to my ninong, our sponsor

my cousin rofel and I. This was one of my most favorite part here. We had our picture here back when we were just 1 digit old, just dunno where it went

Aside from the dino ride, this was one of my most favorite ride before too...

 my pretty cousin, Abygaile Anne

Who does not want to ride the roller coaster?

You people should all see your faces during or after (perhaps) the ride. haha!

oh yeah!

we (people in the picture) all love this piccie

arrr!!! nosepickerrs arre attacking!! arrr!

this is a keeper

you know you're enjoying your day when you all do a wacky pose even when you're not asked to. ;)

something you have to deal with even on rainy season

can you see the resemblance? hehehe

I do not know what to feel when I see this picture. haha

now that pout is an epic fail

Getting hungry is part of the magic and we had this yummy buko salad food!

Shortest game in Lemos history. Ever!

If there would be one thing I will never ever forget is when we entered a Horror House! It was my first time entering one and I will try to have it as my last one too. hehe. Things that happened there were just so hilarious, like when we just entered, it was cold inside and dark and has so many scary sounds, we all ran back outside immediately, then when I turned around to the door, the girl was sitting beside the wall holding a flashslight upside-down lighting her face, yup, I got shocked. haha! Then entering our first room, our arms (me, eva ate kristine and chicha) were around each other side by side, not minding how narrow the door is, where we definitely could not fit passing by at the same time. And the best part was when we got to the room where there was a "scare-r" with a scary mask on and a granny dress (we call it daster), going near us, when I fell down to my knees and brought down the table set too! Plus! I left my other slipper there. haha! I was about to come back for it, but the "scare-r" was just by the door. We were all laughing when we came out. Good time.

Seeing those pictures made me miss my cousins from my mother's side. They are so fun to be with. Spell kalokohan. Plus, I miss Enchanted Kingdom, amuzing me since then. :)

For someone who lives with fireworks everyday through her windows, what facial expression do you expect? :)

xoxo:

15 Reasons Why

Let me share my most favorite people in the world. People I love hanging out with, people I share lots of part in my book. People who inspires me and everything.

1. Ate Hazel. The most awesome photographer, videographer and video editor for me. I've seen lots of good pictures not taken by her, good videos not made by her, but at the end of the day, I will always be looking up to her. She sure makes the best photos she could produce. Same as videos. It's always exciting to see a new video edited by her. The flow of ideas on her mind amazes me that's why she's my idol. She inspired me in video-editing. Furthermore, I love her plans in life, though yung iba, di natutuloy. hehe. I miss the times when we will just lay on bed, talking about things, people, places and some other stuffs while waiting to fall asleep or let's say before going to sleep. And the sleepovers, movie marathons, and eating (haha). She gives me comfort by just talking to her, talking to me, sharing some of her life stories, comments and perspectives in life. She will always be the big sister I never had. It's so nice drinking coffee with you, ate! Salamat sa treats! :D By the way, she's my eldest first cousin from my father's side.

2. Margarita. Say hello to my bestfriend! The bestest-friend ever. Sometimes I am wondering if she was just sent here on earth with a special mission, as an angel in disguise, because all she ever done was good things (I can't think of any deep bad things she have done). She says she's a wallflower and she stands by that, but she's not just any other ordinary wallflower, because she shines on the inside. Being an apprentice of people who inspires her, she slowly become one without further notice. She easliy gets excited about things which can make her happy and can be easily amazed by cool stuffs. She's an introvert, a procrastinator, an internet wiz, a bookworm. She's so go for anything and that's one of the things I could relate with her. Like we we're able to be part of the highschool soccer team, join and luckily win the BFF8Date contest, sneak after class to go to Batangas Pier to visit the Longest Painting in Continuous Canvass without permission from our guardians. hehe. She's also my promotor from doing volunteer works, like being a World Vision volunteer. I just wasn't able to be one. But we were able to do the Hand in Hand for Japan volunteer work together, and supporting the 12 hour famine event. I just miss her, but will always be forever grateful by having her.

3. Eva. My sister, also known as my living diary. Alam na ata neto lahat ng nangyari sa akin sa sobrang kadaldalan ko. Sorry to her ears, she's the first closest person I could share my blabs and who could understand me. We may get annoyed at each other at times, but flip the world upside-down, she'll always be my sister. Di man halata, but I love her with all my heart.

4. Kuya Romejohn. Big Brother #2. My cousin who seems to be making a review or an opinion article just by talking to you. Like he says what he hates about some thing, what he likes about this thing, what excites him and stuffs. Nakakatuwa din sya everytime mag-kkwento sya about how fun his life is. Mostly, about school. When he was in highschool, clubs that he joined, classroom moments, same as this college. He inspires me to "Just do it". Do what you want, what your heart tells you. He served as my tour guide when I was about to enter college and even wished me good luck on my first day, motivating me not to be afraid because college is fun.

5. Kuya Arjay. Big Brother #1. My jolly kuya who seems to be the model for the saying "Keep Calm and Carry On". Wait, did I just said keep calm? Makulit din to e. Calm mag-drive. Relak lang, di nate-ten. hehe. Never seen him dance in an actual thingy, but they say that he's good. He's our bed neighbor back when we were still staying at their house. I happen to tell him some wrong thing I've done where I kind of met an accident. All he told me was just be careful next time at mag-paalam. See? Calm nga. One of the good things about him, sobrang tender-juicy when it comes to love. Hi ate jhaneline! :)

6. Kuya Pierro. Big Brother #3. Kapitbahay since birth. The person who introduced us to stuffs a 90's kid should know. Like different kind of childhood games, co-characters sa isang TV show like Power Ranger. He's red ranger, I'm pink, Eva is yellow, Theron is blue, Stephen is black. Then in Teletubbies, Theron is Tinky-winky, he is Dipsy, I am Lala and Eva is Po. I idolize him when he plays soccer. And also how he gets along with people though he's annoying sometimes. Mabait naman yan, makulit nga lang talaga minsan.

7. Stephen. I just love this person how I could connect to him, like the movies I like, I'll ask him to watch it and then he'll like it too. Then we'll talk about it, tell the movie lines with accent over and over again. And he likes most songs which I like too. And the dancing and stuff, vibes kami nyan! *beso beso :))

8. Tita Tess. My tita stucked at age 25. Check out her old pictures and compare them with the present ones. Pretty much, you'll say na hindi nagbago ang ichura nya. When I didn't continue my 2nd semester as a BSIT student and while waiting for our flight to Spain, I stayed with her and her sons in her house at Parañaque. Most probably, mas naging close kami. Close in a way that I learned some of the things she would never tell to people whom she don't want to be involved as long as she could carry on. She's a busy single mom, but still manages to give time for her family, though it's not what she is expecting herself and used to do as a mother. Being with her at work, while driving, there are lots of things that we talked about which I could never have as a topic with my parents. I also learned so many lessons from her that as long as you can figure out a problem by your own, don't involve many people who can only make some things worse. Your life will always depend on you. Another thing I love about her is her fashion sense, though she tends to be an impulsive buyer sometimes. And the way I was able to discover the world (wait, Manila lang naman) from my father's protective zone, I felt like I grew when I figured out some transportation processes in Manila and when I discovered Divisoria :P. There are also lots of inspiring people na nakilala ko through her, like Sir Joseph from Aboitiz, her and tito Allen's friends, and more. And the eating time bonding. Kain kung kain. Oh I almost forgot...forgot na mag-suklay! Hehe. :P

9. Thirdy-boy. I just so love this kid. He's so fat and so fun to squeeze and hug. Plus, he's so pogi and sweet. He also loves to make gigil to you, where he'll squeeze his face to yours.

10. John Royce, Theron. Though annoying sometimes, my little brothers are like my precious ones. I may not be the best ate in the world, but they make me feel one sometimes. I just love it when we get to bond with each other. I feel like we're just in the same age though we love teasing each other. I just love them. :) +Mom and Dad. 1st of all, I won't be here if not by them. Like my inay, you will not think they're that old for their age. Lotsa stories from them and laughs at some shallow things. I feel like bonding with my friends too.

11. Inay Mercing. With how she works out, you'll never think that she owns the age she have right now. I think she's the coolest lola on earth. Ignoring on how can she use the high-tech gadgets right now, she sure could get along to people in different ages. I love it everytime she'll tell or re-tell her life story back then. Especially her love story, where the tendency is kinikilig pa rin sya. (haha. cute!) Mataray sya kung mataray ka din sa kanya. And she knows where to stand in every situation. She's so supportive that she'll never let you get left behind as long as she can. She's an example of the person who wants to live her life to the fullest like NEVER EVER let an opportunity fly away. Di man kami magkasundo sa ibang bagay, I will always love her how much I love my mom. As a mother, if only she could wish for something which could be granted, I'm sure she'll wish for Peace on Earth and enlightenment in every ones mind.

12. Lola Tita. The most prayful person I know. I love her how she believes in every good possible thing which can happen. She may not always be there with you physically, she sure is supporting you through prayers to God. I love the time when we were staying at her house, when she still wakes up very early in the morning to attend mass. Couple or more times, she brought me with her and the feeling is so relaxing, just seeing the sun rise with God's grace. Once, she listened to me as I spill my very shallow troubles without any judgement. I felt like a huge thorn was plucked out from my heart. I always feel comfortable around her.

13. Rofel. Adik sa dota, young, wild, free. Our playmate since childhood. Napag-kwentuhan ko na rin to ng mga bagay bagay and the person I kinda asked nung may hindi ako naintindihan sa lalake. haha. Free supplier ko rin to ng movies whenever I get to go to Calicanto. Masarap asarin pero di sya napipikon like regarding his growing issues. hehe. Malakas din naman kasi sya mang-asar. I like him the way he likes little kids, on how he bonds with my little bro and AA. Kuya rofel e.

14. Auntie Judith, Ninong Enteng. They are my mother's siblings. They always tell us that we should study hard so we could have a better future, like theirs. Talk about role models. And that we should live life to the fullest. +Tito Ipe. Inspite of being from a different generation from us, they sure are all so fun to hang out with. Also, they are one of the good reasons we could say to be able to go out even at night and eat isaw, other street food and more food. Another thing is, they always treat you. heehee

15. Leah, Ella, Jabin. College friends. Some people who made my De La Salle days hard to move on from. Like, my day won't be complete without breathing a mall air (weird. huh), photoshoots with Ella, thoughts I can only spill to Leah...etc. etc. 

50% carelessness 50% accident

Earlier this afternoon, my brother just broke the glass of our wall clock which was placed on the 2nd level of the cabinet by carelessness and by accident. The wall clock rolled down at the table hitting the plate which was set for our dinner and bounced to the floor and had the glass protector broken with the batteries jumping out from where it was placed to make the clock work. Mom got really mad at him yelling and asking what did he do and some blames why it got broken. While the clock was rolling, our eyes seemed to be like as shocked as we are so no response from us to save it from falling. I immediately picked the pieces of broken glass and put it in a plastic and swept the floor for any more mini pieces of glass.


I understand mom's anger at that moment 'cause if I were her too, I would probably be mad too. But the moment I saw my brother looked down and had a tear in his eyes, I think, I felt he's down. I know he is, because he's kind of emotional too (only at times). I remember when our parents had a bit misunderstanding and my dad was yelling inside our house, my brother cried. When my dad asked why, he said he's crying because they are fighting. "Hindi na nga maka-bili, namamasag ka pa", that was another thing my mom told him. Well that kind of struck me because I didn't expected her to say that. I mean I thought all she's gonna nag about is my brother's carelessness. And yeah, I was like talking to myself through my mind the moment I was cleaning the mess. I was also thinking my brother's side. I'm pretty sure he wishes my dad was there. Everybody knows that he's closer to my dad than with my mom. He doesn't want my mom to get mad at him, or anyone, I know he was thinking of saying "I didn't mean it. It was just an accident", but he couldn't. 


I suddenly thought that mom shouldn't have yelled at him. It seems like his body was slammed to the ground. But then I thought of what she did was okay because that's like conditioning. Making him afraid of her if he ever do that again so the next time he'll be around is he's gonna try to be more careful. (I just hope so)


After I cleaned the floor, I slipped away from the kitchen and started typing this. I don't know what got into me, but I guess, I just need to express what was on my mind. All I was thinking about was psychology. Regarding to what happened, on what must be the right thing to do in order to satisfy yourself that you made the right decision. I know I'm so weird 'cause in the first place, there even are some things I should've not written. I just want to let it out because I know I'll just stammer if I ever tell this to someone I might choose to talk to.

Blabber's Unending Fear

"Face Your Fears", as what most people say. That is, for you to be able to surpass the pressure you get everytime you undergo that matter. First times may always be scary but very intriguing. One funny thing is when things that never failed to make you feel nervous doing is what you always get to do. And everytime you're on the spotlight, you always tell yourself that you're never gonna do it again.

I am NEVER a good speaker. But would you believe that the task of speaking in front of many people lands on me most of the time? Sometimes, by choice, rather than doing more crucial things.

When I was in first year highschool, we had an Elective subject. We, regular students have to choose between Business Math and Public Speaking. I HATE MATH. Therefore, I chose Public Speaking. Formal oral communication is not my thing, but what could I do? Impromptu is a no-no for me, especially when I run out of words to say and no words pop in my head to help me. Not even an Extemporaneous Speech. Memorizing is also a big nah 'cause words always hide from me. Distractions, decaying memory, strange words = enemies. We also had this Sabayang Pagbigkas during the Linggo ng Wika celebration. Our english teacher, who happened to be the judge said, nanghahaba daw ang leeg namin sa pagbasa sa idiot board. Lalo na yung mga nasa likod. Booyeah.

In my sophomore year, I was elected as the class president. In my previous school, a president's job is to represent the class, technically. He/she have to attend meetings, and then announce it to the whole class. Having classmates who are like your siblings made it easier for the job. I can speak to them without getting nervous (maybe sometimes) and we could communicate easily because I just pretend we're talking in a informal mode.

Inah Malaluan, a Junior Athenian of the school year 2009-2010 ran as the President of the LEAP Partylist for the SBO elections. Unexpectedly, she made me agree to run as her Vice President though I could barely see myself in that position (Yeah, I lack of self confidence and spirit, I know). For the first time in BCAS history, there had a meeting de avanse for the four running parties where the President and the VP represent their parties. Nervousness was all over me that time especially when I was asked a question. Another thing is during the campaign periods wherein you have to go to every classroom to seek for supporters. 4th year classes are more tensing because they have more questions to really think about when you don't expect it to come though they won't be voting. You have to say the right words for you to get their fragile support, because a candidate should be good at public speaking. That's what one should have.

Senior High had more public speaking. I represented our class as the Lakambini and Emman as the Lakan. I get embarrassed everytime I get to recall my part where candidates have to greet everyone and introduce themselves to the judges and to the audiences. Especially when I broadcasted my answer in the Q&A portion. I tend to use hand gestures whenever I can't say what I want to say and happen to jumble my words and that made it very awkward especially that time because it's a pageant. We also had this newly formed and never continued club, the shutterbugs club where in we hop in to every classroom to find more members. Thanks to Ronn Arada for the help of speaking up for the group. Whew! Last 2010, I also ran as an SK Councilor of the Team Pook partylist. We had this meeting de avanse at the Bagongpook gym and you wouldn't ask, nervousness almost killed me! I had my speech written in a piece of paper and I was really trying so hard to memorize it. My co-partylist, Kano even exchanged number for I picked the first. I spoke the 2nd. Supposed to be the 5th if he knew it first. When I went to the stage and held the microphone, I feel like wanting to make myself fall from the stage from the moment I accidentally said that I was running for SK Chairman! When I went down, someone laughingly said, "Aagawan mo pa ng pwesto si Yeye (our SK Chairwoman) eh". I also forgot to tell who are my parents and my lola. Geez, It never calms me down though someone from the other party did the same thing too. 


Last November 6, 2011, I didn't know what went into my aunt's mind that she asked me to host my cousin's 3rd birthday party. My cousins and tita joan and tita tess would always tease me by the words I said during the party, "Nag-eenjoy ba kayo mga kids?", then imitate children's expressions which looked like ":|". Definitely, we'll always laugh whenever it's brought up in our conversations.


This February 6, 2012, I was asked to be the 1st reader of the Sunday Mass in Areeta, for a Filipino priest from Pamplona visited. I slowly replied, "Osige po". Before the mass started, my knees were really shaking that the whole church was almost destroyed. I don't know if it's because I'm gonna speak in front of many people that I might stammer and ruin the mass, or because it's too cold. Probably, both. Fortunately, I finished reading the whole reading clear and slow, but I never glanced at people listening. I know for sure that I'll get lost when I get back to what I was reading.


At first thought whenever it'll be offered to me, I just take it and it is so weird that the feeling on the actual moment never bumps my mind, until I'll be on it. I guess I'm just kind of socially active that I love participating. The best part about it are the experiences I get to keep in my memory chest that in the future, I won't be wondering how does it feel like doing those things that when I get older, I can't do nothing but regret. And as what the famous quotation says, "Experience is the best teacher". I know it'll always be.

Nene-da

I was wandering around my facebook profile when I dropped by to my very first note. I think it would be nice to share it here on blogger. :) Didn't know where did this came from, but I'm pretty sure it's true. Except for the "seriousness of your love" part.


Neda:
Your view on yourself: 

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: 

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.


The seriousness of your love: 

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.


The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.


How do you view success: 

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.


What are you most afraid of: 

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.


Who is your true self: 

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


posted: (Tuesday, September 8, 2009 at 10:14pm)